It's quite unsettling when you are not in control of your feelings, but try not to worry if you aren't satisfied with what you currently have. Trust your instincts, for your ruling planet Venus enters your 4th House of Security, ensuring your common sense in love even if you consider shaking everything up for the sake of change. But be careful of overreacting or your inflexibility can create unnecessary problems. Be open to meeting others halfway or you might miss the love that's already in your life.
I know there was a very good reason for saving this one...but you know, a week later, if I don't make any notes, it's hard to say what was running through my head. I do remember the night before, as I tried to go to sleep, feeling utterly and completely out of control of my life...to the point where I actually, seriously thought about rope and the rafters of the back porch. Two main things stopped me...the first being my children. I would never, ever do that to them. What a horrible, selfish thing to do to one's children...let alone spouse, parents, siblings, co-workers, etc. The other is the thing that's always stopped me...if you give in to the long term solution to a short-term problem, you never know what the next chapter is, do you?
I've been getting steadily better since then, even though in some ways, some things are worse than they were then. But yesterday I vowed to press on, take control and stop waiting for someone to save me. Only one someone can save me....me.
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